I have heard everyone ask me to write more on my blog so I thought I would do so. Where should I begin though?!?! So much has happened to me over the past week so I guess I should just tell you everything.
I have been working out everyday doing strength training so that I can impress my Doctors when I go back into rehab. My friend Joe Monan has been over at my apartment almost everyday and he works me hard. I usually have to change shirts cause I am sweating profusely when he leaves. My left shoulder is getting a lot better. I do not have any pain in it right now and I only feel pain when my arm is extended really far. I am going well past 90 degrees in every direction with just minimal assistance. We are trying to get my shoulder ready for THIS WEDNESDAY the 19th at 10:15 AM! I ask that everyone PLEASE remember to pray for me and my Dr's appointment. I will have X-ray's done on my shoulder to see if everything is still screwed in and if my shoulder will be cleared to bare weight. When my Doctor (who actually did my surgery) looks at the X-rays and clears my shoulder for weight baring I will go BACK into the hospital to finish my rehab. I will be doing in-patient rehab which means I will be staying at the hospital and going to rehab for 2 or 3 sessions a day EVERYDAY. Physical therapy then Occupational Therapy, Recreational Therapy and sometimes if IM LUCKY i get to do physical and occupational therapy at the SAME TIME! FUN STUFF! Those days are a blast (SARCASM).
On a good note something is happening with my legs I cant explain it because its hard to describe a sensation. However.... I will do my best to describe what I am feeling. I constantly have constricting feelings throughout my legs almost as if I am wearing tight pantie hose, NOT that I have ever DONE that but I am trying to paint a picture for you.....hahaha Maybe thats a picture you don't want me to paint but you get the idea! Anyways, when I lay down in bed after sitting up for a long time the constriction gets tighter. Its not painful but I can tell something is going on down there. When my mom puts lotion on my feet I can feel a tingling sensation when she touches the bottom of my feet and the tingling sensation follows her finger through my feet. I can not FEEL the touch of her finger but through the tingling I know when she touches my feel and when she stops. I closed my eyes and had her pick a foot and I would tell her where i felt it. I got most of the feeling correct they were VERY FAINT but i could tell which foot was being touched through the tingling?!?
I PRAY that God will answer my prayers and give me my legs back. My life has been turned upside down but I will NEVER give up. I will beat this thing and not let it beat ME! I will work as hard as I possibly can and put the rest in God's hands. There is only so much I can physically do the rest has to be God's will. I do not know what plan he has for me but I BELIEVE that through faith and prayer that God can heal me! The bible talks about faith being so powerful that the Lord performs miracles based on that faith. I know it can move mountains and I know that God can heal me. I am not going to put limits on God's power. No matter what Doctors or anyone else says I will ALWAYS believe. If God should decide not to grant me this request then I know he has something better in store for me. Who knows, maybe I will use this tragedy to bring others to him and in that case I can not think of anything more important. However, if the Lord SHOULD decide that my life would best serve him with two legs then that will be the biggest blessing. My prayers and prayers of some many people are what gives me encouragement. I could NOT do this without the love and support of so many people. I will do my best to make everyone proud!
I continue to ask that you PLEASE continue to keep me in front of God. Please keep praying for me! It is NEVER too late for God to work a miracle. I see miracles everyday some small and some large with prayer and faith I believe I can be one of those miracles. Thank you all SO MUCH for your continued love and support!
I LOVE YOU ALL,